There are times when life gets crazy. You know the feeling. It might be bills, overbearing neighbors and people groups, job stressors, too many commitments…adjusting to life as a working mom, a stay at home mom, or a home schooling mom. Trying to balance an addition to the family. Dealing with an unruly pet. Figuring out how to not go crazy at home with the never ending cycles that come with being with small children all day. Figuring out how to not go crazy trying to balance working outside the home and meeting those small children’s needs for mommy. Facebook addiction. Phone addiction. Pinning all the things instead of doing all the things. You get it.
My family was there. Really, we’ve been there for a few years. Our “crazy” has meant court battles, managing a child with PTSD episodes and other behaviors that are hard to manage, two years of not living in our own home, periods of joblessness, job changes, living in a small apartment with five people, me homeschooling and managing moving and the kids while my husband has been away more than he hasn’t for his job the last year…but it’s starting to break. Homeschooling is getting easier. My husband just came home after being gone for almost all of the last three months (even though he’s gone again next week). My daughter is currently in an improved phase, and I found some REALLY promising resources for her in the location we’re in now. Our family court appeal is going to be heard on October 28, and we currently don’t have any other ongoing trials to deal with. And today…today, we are finally closing on this beautiful log cabin home in the woods. Peace. Wow!
So we’re beginning. Continuing. Reviving ourselves as we near the end of the struggles we’ve been facing. Running as fast as we can toward the relief that we want to wash over us. Being silent, because we don’t know what to say as we just breathe. It feels so good to finally breathe again, and not in hurried, panicked breathes that we choke on as we try to save ourselves. If I’ve learned anything, it’s that we can’t save ourselves. We can’t save our children. We can’t save anyone. We can only release ourselves. Release our children. Release others.
Today, we mark another step in reviving our life, and we are so ready.